DAY 046: I do my best

October 6, 2008 | Monday

NIGHT TIME. Today was a bore. Nothing happened, but I did get stamps and soap. 🙂 Nobody is around me and the officers refused to allow others into this recreation cage that is before this cell. Ranking officials are attempting to limit contact between us as much as they can. It has not always been like that, but rules change constantly. On the positive side, it allowed me to clear my mind of distractions. And I am able to think more clearly about my situation. A lot I have thought about is the hidden forces that influence our behavior. Life’s behavior in general. The book “Sway” confirms things I have read before. How, unconsciously, all of us know about these emotional sways. However, we fall victim to sways in emotion because we don’t consciously consider emotional pulls. Even if I am purposely isolated and stepped on, I can do my level best to decide how to “feel” about it. Just as you are flesh and blood, conscious of your surroundings, so I am. At times, emotional undercurrents can threaten to sweep away our dignity. However, we don’t have to allow it. Sometimes it’s not easy to dismiss the itty-bitty, shitty committee. But I do my best.


5 Responses to “DAY 046: I do my best”

  1. Tina Church Says:


    Don’t let the itty bitty shitty committee get to you~~~~~~~Hang tough.

    Much love,


  2. Art Taylor Says:

    Hello Roy
    Stay strong mentally my friend and keep the itty bitty shitty committee at bay. They can confine you physically but they can not confine your mind. So let your mind roam God’s vast spaces and feel the comfort of the surroundings as you glide through His hills and valleys. Stay safe my friend.

  3. Françoise Says:

    Ciao, caro Roy,
    You are incredible. From every bad or difficult situation, you are making the most of it. No contact, no recreation? Never mind, “it allows you to clear your mind of distractions.” Not an ounce of superficiality in you.
    I am really amazed to see the huge capacity of self-analysis, of positive introspection you have developed. You are on the way to become a great philosopher!
    You know how to control the sways in emotion in order to protect yourself and your dignity, but you also are able to let speak your heart, when you retain it necessary.
    That is where your strength lies.
    Ulysse, my beloved grand-father, would have said : ” high spiritual elevation” (how does it sound like in English?)
    Much love and warmest thoughts

  4. Kiki Says:

    I read somewhere (and I am upset not to remember where… and written by whom) something along those lines:
    When you have learned to not get consumed by anger but let it evaporate and float away as a light cloud instead of letting it bothering you as a red hot flame; then you’ll be free.
    I confess it might have been totally different but somehow these thoughts have become a ‘life line’ for me and although I very well might have made most of this up for myself – it DOES make sense, doesn’t it?!
    So leave the xyz committee do their thing, let it flow or pass over you like a cloud… You might like watching it from underneath, going away… 🙂

  5. Claire Says:

    It’s amazing how strong minded he is.

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